i have just wasted one whole precious saturday sleeping. i slept for 24hrs in total and i have missed the dance competition which i promised someone that i will be there. worst hangover ever! =(



here are some updates on what i have been doing for the past 2 weeks.

ran a total distance of 43km+, longest distance ran was 10km
completed 32km route march
got gold for IPPT, finally =D
failed SOC 3 times

i feel that my knee is going to break very soon..

i have graduated from basic section leader course on the 14th of feb aka valentines day. happy that i didnt fall out during the 28km graduation march.

got posted to charlie company to continue with advance section leader course. charlie company is a well-known xiong company in sispec. T.T

screwed up my Fitness Specialist (this is what they call PTI nowadays) selection. just because i cant swim well. but im glad that im not alone, lol. i have learned how to swim when i was 6 or 7 and i know that swimming is good but i didnt know that knowing how to swim the right way can be so important. *sighs*. guess that i should get myself mentally and physically prepared to become an infanchui specs. *double sighs*

"up the hill, down the slope." ='(

I always knew looking back at the cries would make me laugh,
but i never knew looking back at the laugh would make me cry.

quoted from winnie.roar

多情自古空餘恨..

曾經滄海難為水，除卻巫山不是雲。

八月十五，欲借酒消愁，愁更愁。

幸得好友二人，否则难以自拔。

忆昔日众人饮酒作乐之景，感叹也。

酒乃助兴之物，借酒消愁之举非所宜。

你我的回忆历历在目，何年何月方能忘了？

my current mood:




8yrs in return of this.

当你为了我和他而犹豫




我不该只等待你做决定




如果任性




那么一次把你抱紧




也许不会失去你








心，很久没有这样的乱了




想做的事始终没有做到




想说的话说不出口




一点迟疑，一生的悲凄






















很痛，也很累了

my graduation day is on the 28th of may, less than a week's time. this the day i have been looking forward all along, but why am i not excited at all?


okay this is something to make you cry. *grin*


vitamin C - graduation (friends forever)






okay, i know i am very evil to make you cry like a baby.. =( stop crying now and watch this!! =)

qouted from 南派三叔的BLOG

刚刚接通了一位采访过我的四川记者朋友的电话，她刚刚从绵竹退下来，这个娇小的丫头在电话里和我讲了她眼见的情况，她只用了四个字形容，就是：“世界末日。”她说她几乎无法工作，眼泪就没有停过，太惨了，一片一片的废墟，到处是哭喊的声音，救援队发了疯一样的救人，然而往往救不了，跟着去的摄影只了拍一张照片，就扔下相机去帮忙，因为那情景让你不可能站着看着。

她和我说，她在一个学校现场看到了她永远不会忘记的一幕，学校的主教学楼坍塌了大半，当时正在上课，几乎有100多个孩子被压在了下面。全是小学生。一些似乎是消防队员的战士在废墟中已经抢出了十几个孩子和三十多具尸体，看着那些小小的，带着红领巾却再也无法睁开眼睛的孩子，她说她突然觉得自己说话的勇气都没有了。

然而就在抢救到最关键的时候，突然教学楼的废墟因为余震和机吊操作发生了移动，随时有可能发生再次坍塌，再进入废墟救援十分的危险，几乎等于送死，当时的消防指挥下了死命令，让钻入废墟的人马上撤出来，要等到坍塌稳定后再进入，然而此时，几个刚才废墟出来的战士大叫又发现了孩子。

几个战士听见了就不管了，转头又要往里钻，这时坍塌就发生了，一块巨大的混凝土块眼看就在往下陷，那几个往里转的战士马上给其他的战士死死拖住，两帮人在上面拉扯，最后废墟上的战士们被人拖到了安全地带，一个刚从废墟中带出了一个孩子的战士就跪了下来大哭，对拖着他的人说你们让我再去救一个，求求你们让我再去救一个！我还能再救一个！

看到这个情形所有人都哭了，然而所有人都无计可施，只眼睁睁的看着废墟第二次坍塌。后来，那几个小孩子还是给挖出来了，但是却只有一个还活着，看着那些个年轻的战士抱着那个幸存的小女孩在雨中大叫着跑向救援所在的帐篷的时候，她已经泣不成声。

我无法想象这在电话中已经如此惊心动魄的情形在当时是怎么样一个悲壮的场面，我只知道这是真实的，而且，在现在，在震中地区，这样的事情还在重复的发生着，就在今夜，我坐在舒适的房间内，第一次意识到我是否应该做些什么，虽然我不可能到现场去，但是我是否应该做一些力所能及的事情？

于是我眼含着眼泪，首先发了这一篇博文，我知道这篇博文无法带来什么实际的帮助，但是，这是我想到的最便捷的，我所能立即做到的第一件事情，一篇文虽然没有力量，但是至少我可以让更多的人关注这件事情。只有完成了第一件事情，才有第二件，第三件。

T_T

move on!!


get over and done with!!


u need to get a life, loser!!









i wish i could.

i dont know why am i behaving this way.
i dont know what my mind is thinking.
everything seems so wrong to me. everything.
i dont like him.
i dont like her.
i dont like myself.
i dont like you.
has everything changed? or am i a changed person.
you took my soul along with you.
my goals. my motivations. my everything.
i just hope that i can survive all this.

went to ernest's place last night to help him out with the blog thingy and cheated a meal from him. lol. took bus 43 home. haven been riding a bus for such a long journey recently. very nostalgic, sigh, especially on the bus 43.

sigh.

zhilong u this 損友!

=(

i bang my head on a very solid roof beam

last sat at NTU while doing my itp

my head is still swollen now

ouch!

oh ya, checked my results for sem2 just now


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well, at least i passed all my module

my dear friends

my computer is dead, on the eve of CNY

thus

i am very sad now

i will be happy to accept donations of any kind


*this post is typed using chaksang's keyboard